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Ok so i have a new lay out and i really like it...tell me what you think if you like it or not...it would be really apriciated. Well everything is going well. I have a math test tomorrow and i really havent studdied for it. I need to print out the review and see how much i can do it. lol well guess ill talk to you guys later. much love to all

Megan @)~

Just a quote from George Washington...

The sleeping fox cathest no poultry up! up!...

Hope you enjoy. i will have a quote from two different ppl everyday...George Washington, and Jane Austen...hopefully ;-)

MLTA
Megan @)~

Lets see...what to say what to say. Not totally sure what to type, but Darrell really wants me to update, so thats what i am doing. Matt and i are doing very well...we get to talk to eachother every day now. It almost feels like he is still in the states and is just an hour and a half away from me, but for some reason i cant see or hang out with him. I do love him very much. Hes my baby :-D hehe. School is going ok not liking math right now i am slacking in that class i really need to start buckling down. and i intend to do that this week and for the rest of this semester. I hurt my foot so i cant dance i ballet and i am forced to withdraw from that class b/c if i keep dancing i fear that i will injure my foot and never beable to dance on it agin and i dont want that to happen. Then if that happends i wont beable to play soccer if i ever want to...or softball. that wouldnt be good. I wish i had some insperational advice but i dont. and i think this is going to be the end of my entry. I know its not long but its an entry.

Much love to all. Every one stay safe in all that they do in life.

Megizzle @)~

You work your hardest to get the house clean...you gripe at your parents b/c you are working as fast as you can but they want you to work harder. Everything seems to not be going your way. This is what you havent been looking forward to, the whole month of November. All you are doing is cleaning all week. No fun time, no time with your friends. Just clean and go to work. When you get off work you know you are going home just to work even more. You scrub your tubs, sincks, and toilets. You dust and vacume, you do the laundry. You cook the best dinner you know how to make. You make the beds, straighten up the toys. You take all the junk you dont know where to put and stuff it in a room you know no one is going to go into...or atleast you wont let them go into.

All of this hard work, for the people you love. The people that have been there for you all your life. The people that have either put a roof over your head and fed you, or the people that have influenced you thoughout you entire life. The people that love you just as much as you love them. Your parents and siblings. When you siblings are with you for Christmas eve and Christmas morning, that fight you had a few hours before just doesnt matter, the clothes that you sister stole have no meaning. Not on Christmas. Everything in the past is in the past and wont be brought up on this glorious day. The day that Christ our savior came to this earth. When you celebrate Christ's birth with you family nothing matters. Not the food that you burnt, not that job that you hate, and not your mean next door neighbor. Its like you have tonnel vision and can't see everything that happend, is happening, or is going to happen. It seems like none of that matters anymore.

So when you get that great big Christmas hug from you father that you yelled at, and made you cringe b/c he was yelling at you for the stupidest thing, do you think of all the things you were thinking when you were mad at him? Do you refuse his hug? No!. All b/c you remember that this is Christ's birthday and we are celebrating it for him. You know that there are far worse things that could happen, then an arguement that you had with your parents, or the quaral you had with you boyfriend/girlfriend. You can even ask him, I'm sure he will answer. I'm sure that if Christ had to live life again, he would go through the same torture that he went through 2,000,000 years ago, all to save your life, and mine.

Please take my advice...Live life to the absolute fullest. Dont take it lightly. You have so much to offer and so little time. You are worth more then you know. You know how most people dont really save pennies...well if we were all pennies, God would save all of us in his wallet. However, i know to him, individually, we are worth more then the finest gold, platenum, or jewels.

Now please take George Straight's advice: "Lifes a dance you learn as you go. Sometimes you lead, sometimes you fallow. Dont worry about what you dont know. Lifes a dance you learn as you go". So live life like no other. Dance your heart out, Even if you dont know how to dance, you'll learn as you go. Just like the saying. "If you know the words to a song, sing. If you dont know the words to a song, sing louder".

Please take this all into concederation before you just blow it off. Merry Christmas to all..and happy birthday Jesus.

Much love
Megan@)~

I was looking at my e-mails and one of my friends that is in the Navy sent me this message and it really hit home...the message read...

I hope that all is well this time of year. As we approach this time of the year where we give thanks to all that we have in life or who we have in life, take a moment to reflect. Reflect on all the many thing that you have accomplished this past year, everything that has happened to you (some good, some bad). But mainly, I ask you to think about our brothers, sisters, cousins, friends, next-door-neighbors, etc. I’m talking about those that defend our freedom and way of life. Sure, we make small sacrifices her and there, but they do it on a daily basis (mainly those in Iraqi or Afghanistan). They make sacrifices everyday, whether its making security patrols, standing guard at base entry points, or just providing care to those in need. They make sacrifices by giving up their time with their family and loved ones to secure our freedom and way of life. Sometimes spending as much as 6 months – 1 year away. At times, many will go, but few will return. Reason being, b/c they have made the Ultimate Sacrifice. So, I ask you to just think about all you have and what you’ve gone through, and then look at what they have gone through. We might complain if we are going to be late b/c of traffic or car trouble. Then our comrades in the Marines, Army, Air Force and Navy might have similar problems. Only thing is, instead of running late b/c of traffic or car trouble, they are running late, b/c their tour got extended by few months. And when they have car trouble, it is usually due to roadside bombers. Now whose problems carry more weight?.................. I guess what I am really trying to say, is give thanks to all that you have in life, no matter how big or little it is. Even the simplest praise is the most appreciated.

Hope you enjoyed it..much love to all.

Megan @)~

I was looking at my myspace and on of my friends had put up a buliton, and it hit me hard...it really made me think...so read this and be enlightened...the bulliton read...

In our quest for happiness we must be sure that we don't settle for a Playmate when God has a Soul mate waiting for us. Sometimes this is a hard distinction to make. Playmates are tricky. They are so much fun to be with that even the smartest of us will be fooled into thinking this has to be our Soul mate. Worse yet too many of us attempt to make a Soul mate out of a Playmate. The danger of this is that later, after years of playing we will meet our Soul mate, but it may be too late then. We may have already made a Life mate of our Playmate and created life-long bonds (emotional, children, etc.)

Or we may have been hurt from playing so hard that we are in no shape ourselves to be anyone's anything. How can we distinguish between the One, and just another one? First, we must be open with ourselves about who we really are and what our soul yearns for. Only you and God know what is truly in your heart and mind. Only you know what will make you truly happy and whole. In order to find your Soul mate you have to know you, first. You must be willing to listen to that inner voice. And is that voice telling you that the nerdy person you enjoy talking and sharing your thoughts with, could be he? What about that friend who is always willing to go the extra mile for you when no one else will. Oh no! He's too short or too tall, balding or too hairy, and on and on?

Just too ordinary looking for me! Then there's that girl/guy who makes you feel so special when you're around her/him, but she/he doesn't match that ideal you have conjured in your head. She's/he's too tall, not slender enough, not light or dark enough, not shapely enough, not attractive enough, and on and on. She/he just couldn't be for me! So

what if he or she doesn't look like Denzel Washington or Janet Jackson! He or she is going to treat you like the jewel that you are. Not only that, his or her soul and yours will commune in ways you never imagined possible! In order to heed that voice, we have to put on the back burner our own superficial thinking. Could it be that

your inner desire is for a truly genuine person with a good heart? If you enjoy playing, stay on the playground. There are plenty of Playmates out there to occupy your time. But don't spend too much time playing or you may play your life away. Eventually the playing loses it appeal and your soul begins to crave a deeper, more meaningful connection. Your soul begins to crave your Soul mate.

"Everything we face we cannot change but nothing changes until we face it

Well my nephew Patrick had his 1st birhtday party yesturday, and it was alot of fun...Matt Haley, my boyfriend, came over and met the whole family...well imediate family. Everyon liked him and i am soooo happy about that. Dave my bro in-law and him had a long conversation about the army and Fort Hood/Killeen Texas. The only thing is, is that my family has this little rule that you cant talk about work when you are in the presence of family at a family function...well Matt and Dave were talking about they're work but we kinda let it go since Dave never got to talk about work while he was in the army so we kinda just let them talk...but we told Matt that this was the only time he could talk about work...since Toni (sis) amd my mom over used the "talking about work at home" card...lol Well like i said everyone seemed to like him and i am really happy. Since i havent updated in a while i will tell you what has happend in the 2 months that we have been goin out...well maybe not EVERYTHING...lol (just 411, thats not a sexual "everything", just a general). Well we started going out about 3 months after we started casually dating eachother. We had known eachother about a year before we even went on a first date. So we have known eachother for a little while. Well when we started dating i had gone to his house in killeen a few times and just hung out with him and his house mates (julie and joe). Matt gave me his Army ring and i wear it around my neck on a chain of course...when i say he gave it to me i mean i kinda said hey cant i wear your ring...lol he said yeah and thats big concidering his last girlfiend wanted to wear his class ring and lost it...and when he told me that story he said that he wouldnt let another girl wear his ring...so i felt pretty special. I havent taken it off since...i dont take it off when i sleep and i dont take it off when i shower, it never leaves my neck. After about a month, i was at Matts house hang in out and we were alone in his living room sitting on the couch and he told me that he loved me and mindlessly i said that i loved him back...after that happend i realized what i had said and i was like WOA!!! i didnt even have to think about that...i guess i really do love him...i was so happy at that point, and still am. After that we havnet been the same toward eachother since...and i say that in a good way not a bad way. We talk to eachother on the phone everyday even if it is late and he thinks that i am asleep then i tell him that it doesnt matter if its late he can still call me.

I am extremily sad right now though...matt is on leave and driving to Georgia to see his mommy and daddy for 2 weeks. i am going to miss him...but then on the 5th of november he is coming back and then we are going to see eachother as much as we can in those few days he has left in the states. Matt leaves for Iraq sometime between the 5th and the 15th, so that doesnt give us much time to see eachother. Then after he leaves i wont see him for 7 whole moths. When he comes back on leave, he is going to fly straight into Atlanta, GA and then he is going to fly me over there and i am going to meet his parents. i am sooooo excited. i cant wait. i am going to be there for 16 days at the most. then he will fly me back...and i am not going to pay a cent, he is paying for the plane ticket, i thought that was sooo sweet. then he is going to leave for another 5 months and then he will be back in the states for the rest of the time he is in the army, if they dont deploy him again. i doubt they will b/c he will only have a year and a half left in the army...but i dont know sometimes the army finds ways you know...Well thats about it...it will be 2 months on the 9th of November. The 4 things that i am going to hate while he is in Iraq is that he wont be here for Christmas, my birthday, valentines day, his birthday, and just the fact that he wont be here...oh wait thats 5 isnt it...huh oh well...so its 5 things that i am going to hate while he is gone. thats about it... i will update again when i have something to update about...

AML
Megan

Close your eyes... And go back...

Before the Internet or the AIM

Before semi automatics and weed

Before playstation2 or X-bOX

Before the 5 hours of homework you put off every night...

Way back...

I'm talkin' bout hide and go seek at dusk.

Red light, Green light.

Playing kickball & dodgeball until your porch light came on.

Mother May I?

Red Rover

four square

Hula Hoops

Running through the sprinkler

Happy Meals

Getting the privelage to sit in the front seat of the car

Wait...

Watchin' Saturday Morning cartoons

Like Hey Arnold and Doug

Or what about legends of the hidden temple, global guts, double dare, and who, ARE YOU AFFRAID OF THE DARK!

Who could forget Snick

Or the teenage mutant ninja turtles,and Power Rangers,

Christmas morning...

Your first day of school

Bedtime Prayers and Goodnight Kisses

Climbing trees

Getting an ice cream off the ice cream truck

A million mosquito bites and sticky fingers

Jumpin' down the steps

Jumpin' on the bed

Pillow fights

Runnin' till you were out of breath

Laughing so hard that your stomach hurt and you almost peed your pants

Being tired from playin' all day

Your first crush...

Rainy days at school meant playing "Heads up 7-Up" in the classroom

Remember that?

I'm not finished yet...

Kool-Aid was the drink of the summer

Giving your friends a ride on your handlebars or spokes

Wearing your new shoes on the first day of school

Class Field Trips

When nearly everyone's mom was at home when the kids got there.

When getting high was swinging on the swingset

When $5 seemed like a million, and another dollar a Miracle.

When your parents took you to McDonalds and you were so cool.

When Toys r Us overuled the "mall"

I want to go back to the time when...

Decisions were made by going "eeny-meeny-miney-moe"

Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming, "do over!"

"Race issue" meant arguing about who ran the fastest.

Money issues were handled by whoever was the banker in "monopoly"

Catching fireflies could happily occupy an entire evening

It wasn't odd to have two or three "best" friends.

Being old, referred to anyone over 20.

The worst thing you could catch from the opposite sex was cooties.

Nobody was prettier than Mom

Nobody was cooler than Dad

Scrapes and bruises were kissed and made better

It was a big deal to finally be tall enough to ride the "big people" rides at the amusement park, and to sit at the big kids table at Thanksgiving/Christmas.

Getting an inch of snow was a dream come true.

Abilities were discovered because of a "double-dog-dare"

Spinning around, getting dizzy and falling down was cause for giggles.

If you can remember most or all of these, then you have LIVED!!!

Pass this on to anyone who may need a break from their "grown up" life...

i double dog dare you

Well, College started yesturday, and as usual i have something happen to me on the first day of a big even. I got sick yesturday morning and counldnt go to my College Algebra class...I went to my first class, well half of it anyway, I threw up before class in the bathroom and during class in the bathroom, so i was really sick. Then the professor suggested that i go home b/c all they were going to do was exersizes, so i went home and layed in bed until my next class but found that i was not able to get up even slowly with out getting nausious, so i didnt go. By the time my 6 o'clock class rolled around i was alot better and able to get out of bed and drive to the Pinacle. I stayed until the professor dismissed us and after that i was alot better. I went to class today and met with my Math professor and told her what happend and she gave me all the stuff that i needed from the class. I am really good today except the part where my stomach muscles ache from throwing up. The bad thing is, is that, my mom, my dad, Gina, Travis, Patrick, Toni, and Lizzie all have the same thing. I am not sure about John and Jackson, but Margo, Dave, Haden, and Thomas all dodged the stomach virus bullet b/c they came over on saturday, where as everyone else came over on Sunday. Thats how everyone got sick. To whome ever is reading this that got the virus from me, i am truly sorry that i gave it to you. I didnt know that i had it on sunday b/c i got sick on Monday morning. I love you all and wish you all well.

To all my buddies that have started College, Congrats on your first days of classes, we are going to do great b/c we were the class of 2005, and we all know that the Class of 2005 kicks @$$$$$$$$$$$$$$!!!!!!. i love you all and wish you all a great first semester in college. <3333333333333333333333333333333333333333333

all my love
Megganon

i really dont have the need to write in this right now...dont know why...just nothin interesting has happend...so when something interesting happends then i will writ in it...ttyl

AML.
Megan

Well there is this guy that i really like and he likes me but we arent dating we are just talking at the moment...i wouldnt mind dating him... he is in the army and he is in California rightnow. I cant talk to him and i really want to...i like him sooo much i have met with him once but it was a casual meeting but we have so much to talk about and he is sooo much fun to be around...when we are together it just feels right...i have known him for a long time but we have just been friends...i didnt really like him at first but i think that was just b/c i was holding back b/c i was "dating" darrell and i dint want anything to get in the way of us but that was a bust now wasnt it...lol. While i was "dating" darrell i stoped talking to him...then when everything was over we started talking again and i began to like him more and more...He is 21 and a total cutie...he tells me that i am beautiful and that makes me feel sooo good...here is a pic of him...

isnt he such a cutie...i like him...but the down side to all of this is that he lives in Killeen and he is probably going to go to Iraq...but if we start going out i think i can handle it...but i wont beable to talk to him at all while he is there...and i dont know how long he is going to be there...If you are woundering how we met...me and my friends are on this site called myspace and you can talk to your friends and make new friends as well...well he saw me on there and sent me a message and he seemed cute but i wasnt totally wanting someone at that point b/c i thought i had darrell...well i accepted his friends request and we talked alittle bit but then i stoped talking to him b/c i started to like him and didnt want that b/c i didnt want anything to get in the way of me and darrell...well then when everything was over i started to talk to him again and now we are talking...We met right after work one day just a spur of the moment thing...we went to dinner and stuff...and talked and got to know eachothers face and mannerisms...and he was soooo incredibly sweet to me...so yeah...thats about it i guess i will ttyal

AML
megs

Still sick and kinda sad latelly... i dont know why... but when i think about it the only thing that comes to mind is b/c i wont beable to talk to darrell very much for the rest of the summer. He is my friend and i enjoy talking to him...we have this connection that i dont have with my other of my guy friends. We talk about anything and everything. well enough of darrell...ummm what to say what to say...oh my sister toni and her family moved up to dallas and i am really going to miss them...but its not like i wont ever talk to them or see them...i still talk to toni on aim and she comments on my lj and i read hers and comment on hers. She also said that she would come down and visit every month for a few days...so thats good. well thats all i can say at the moment...oh i think im going through this fase again where i dont eat very much...just not hungry...it lasted about 3 weeks last time so i dont know how long this is going to last...every one alwasy gets scared for me and saying that they dont want me to become anerexic (sp) but i never do...i have gone through this about 2 time this will be the third time. oh well. No one worry about me i will be fine. ok well i will ttyl

all my love
megan

Well surprisinglly enough i am feeling better and think i can go to Kirby lane with erica and magda.So thats a pluss. Ummmm i dont know what to say...i am just sooo bored staying at home by myself. I want something to do. oh well i will just watch some more tv.

all my love
megan

ok heres the 411...I got sick on Saturday morning went to work but didnt feel good at all. Every one told me to go home b/c i didnt look good at all... I told them i would see how i was doing when lunch came around...well lunch came around and i still felt awful. So i went home early. I got home and we celebrated Fathers day...i know i know...my family and i tend to celebrate things a week early or a week late...lol. That evening before everyone went home...i got really really cold...i was under 3 blankets and still couldnt get warm. Then next morning i was soooo frizzin hot i couldnt get warm...turns out that i had a 104 temp...i know scarry. So my parents proceeded to draw me a cold bath to cool me down and bring my temp down...before the tub was ready my temp went down to 103 then 101. So no cold bath for me thank goodness. All day i was bed ridden. My head was hurting...but not just an ache it was a migrain kinda hurt...when i would stand up it would get worse. My throat was hurting and still does...it hurt to talk...it hurt to laugh...it hurt to swollow...it even hurt to breath...and all of those hurts still hurt right now. But now my head dosent hurt...but with good things come bad things right...well i lost a headache but gained a caugh...lol. I went to the doc today and they tested me but it turned out - so she said it is just a cold...but how does a cold make your feaver shoot up to a 104 temp is my question. Oh well. i kinda wished it was tauncelitous (sp) b/c then i dont think i would have to go through this horrible pain anymore...uggg. Well one of my friends just got a new gf...isnt that great...i am sooo happy for him...i wish i was like him he works fast...i wish i could get a guy that fast...i cant even get one guy...lol...oh well my time will come right...at least thats what everyone keeps telling me. *swollows* OOOOOOCH. grrrrr. i hate this. everyone stay away from me...you do not want to get this.ok well enough of this...isnt that just sooo sad all i can talk about in this stupid thing is my sickness... lol... oh well better entry next time i hope..

all my love

Megan

So what happends now....so what happends now...where am i going to...where am i going to...dont ask anymore...well single once again and kinda enjoying it this time. now when i go to schlitterbahn with the girls i will beable to look at the guys and not feel guilty and i can flirt with them too..hehehe. that will be soo much fun. I just took my ring in to get sized b/c it was a whole size too big. lol. oh well..now i feel naked without it. well thats all i have to report..i will ttyl

all my love
megan

Well i went on a date with Mike tonight and i had alot of fun. He is soooo sweet. We went to Chili's at about 5:30pm and the food was great as usual. It was funny at first we didnt really have anything to talk about...then when i started talking about Schlitterbahn and whats going to happen we almost couldnt stop talking...then we talked about his sis' wedding in July, he wants me to go with him and meet his family and of course his whole family will be there but i dont mind b/c i think i am pretty sweet and will win them over... i hope *puts hands together and prays*. Then we went to a movie (the longest yard) it was a great movie. Extreamilly funny...but sad at the same time. He held my hand and i laid my head on his shoulder...then i moved my hand and he put his hand on my leg...at one point he tickled me...hehe...but it was really nice. Then after the movie he took me home and at this time it was about 9:45 when i got home...i know i know, thats too early...but he had to get back to San Marcos so that he can wake up early. In his car in my drive way, i said thank you, and he said your welcome and asked if i had fun...and i said heck yes...lol no i just said yes...then i asked him if he had fun and he said yes...and he kissed me three times...but they were all pecks on the lips...but that ok...he is a great kisser...he puts butterflies in my tummy...but i love the feeling. and that was my date...i wish i had been longer but thats ok. Thats all i have to report...i will ttyl

all my love
megs

P.S. before all of this happend i was talking to him on the computer and i have this ring with a cross cut out in it from james avory from my sis for graduation...if you wear it facing to you it means you are taken an if you face it away from you that means you are single...well i asked him which way i should wear it...and he said toward you b/c you are taken...and i was like oh ok...and i said so does that mean i am your girlfriend and you are my boyfriend and he was like yeah...do you mind...and i was like no not at all...i am really happy. so yeah i have a boyfriend. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...lol as you can tell i am excited. ;) ok well i will ttyl bye bye

ok im sure you are aware that school is over...i just havent updated in a while. well i am glad that i graduated...but i am scared b/c of college. I really dont have alot to say. There is this guy that i am going to go out on a date with on Sunday, i met him at one of my friends parties a while back. We were just friends and i didnt know if anything was going to happen between us so i didnt really mention anything to anyone. I dont know y i just usually keep to myself. i think maybe if i tell ppl about whats happening in my life i am afraid i am going to be judged...even by my family. I dont know y i just dont know how to handle dates with the the family i hardly ever go out so i dont really know what to expect. Well anyway this guy...he is in the army...lives in San Marcos...gose to Texas State...he is 22 but the sweetest guy...he works in home building...and there is more just dont feel like typing it...if you want to know more just ask and i will tell. i have pics if you want to see...his name is Mike Morish and he is sooooooo sweet and nice to me. there he is

thats him isnt he cute...at least i think so
all my love
megs